Transcript of the Talk on Reincarnation Study Unit - Part II There is another question: ‘How does the consciousness get into the body?’ And I will just explain that at conception, at the moment of conception, a piece of the soul, a piece of consciousness you could say, is uniting itself within the womb of the mother. It’s a very interesting process to go into an incarnation. You could say that in-between life on Earth, you are very free, call it 'spiritually free'. The moment that your consciousness unites itself within – you should say with the egg within the mother, you’re not free anymore. You are tied to another human being, and for the first three months the foetus has very little consciousness, and then it starts. Even then, you remember everything that the parents are saying to each other and what happens while you are within the womb of the mother, and that is causing people a lot of problems.
At birth, just when you have been born, more consciousness enters, and you become more alive, so to speak. In matters where the foetus is in danger of being expelled or hurt/damaged, more soul consciousness enters into the foetus to give help to the foetus. Until you are born, if you have a normal sort of period within your mother’s womb, you have some consciousness. Afterwards, you have much more, and the memory is very strong.
When one is living in-between physical life, one feels wonderful. It is something you don’t remember on purpose because you would feel less wonderful on Earth if you remembered that. But I can promise you, the moment you are entering into the mother’s womb, you feel immediately constricted, as you also do physically when the foetus is big and cannot move within the mother’s womb, creating many programs of imprisonment, choking, drowning and so forth; but also many memories of warmth, of love and so on. But there are many programs created in that period.
Then we have another question: ‘Who decides that you are to be incarnated?’ Who do you think decides? – your soul. Now never mistake ‘you’ for being the soul. The personality itself is not the soul and has no say in the matter except that the personality is a higher disciple, an initiate. The soul is the all-deciding factor, and it cooperates with the Great White Brotherhood in creating a pattern which is most suitable for you. In the pattern, there have to be moments where you pay back karmic debts. You also have to meet the right people at the right time. You may marry three times and have six de-facto husbands, three to six children, and so forth. Everything is decided. Your life is patterned into what we call ‘very big details’. How you act in-between is the free will that every human being is getting.
You can create a miserable life for yourself or a positive life. There are certain things you can’t run away from, but it is your thoughts and feelings that will decide whether your life will be wonderful, splendid or horrible and disgusting. And that is something that one never knows. The soul doesn’t know how you will react, and the Hierarchy doesn’t know. And that is the interesting part on Earth; we don’t know. We only know that you are born with a certain mission. There are certain things you have to learn in every lifetime and you will be given the opportunity to learn.
But you can fail. You can sit down in your chair and say, ‘I’m not budging’. You can be a stubborn mule and say, ‘I am going to show that I’m not going to do what my soul wants me to do.’ It’s an unconscious thing. ‘I’m angry with that soul. That soul has given me this disgusting life. I’m going to show the soul that I am the master in my own house’ – house of the personality – and you don’t do a thing of what you had to do. But you will do it next time, I promise you that, because certain things will be revealed to you on the inner levels and you will be very sad, and therefore strive to obey next time.
Very often, we are accusing God to be the – what shall we say – the creator of your daily hell. It is actually your soul, not God. Your soul works within the Divine Law. It’s your soul which creates what you call your hell, misery or wonderful incarnation. Don’t blame God, talk to your soul about it. Get something perhaps better next time. If you are living as best as you can, you will get something wonderful next time.
It’s an interesting thing that many people have a mistaken belief about reincarnation. They believe that because they were a brilliant composer or pianist, or brilliant actor or divine teacher last time, they are born with the same abilities, but you are not. It will take some time before you get them back because you have learned them to the full. If you have been a brilliant composer and pianist, you will not be so for some time to come. It has been learned.
There are so many things to learn in every lifetime, you have no idea. It will take you those thousands of lives to learn. Say that you were Mozart, and you don’t understand – you can’t play on the piano, you haven’t got the genius. ‘What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I do it? I’m working in a library instead. I’m very good with the work in the library’ – and that’s what you are supposed to do. You’re not supposed to be another Mozart or Beethoven, another Napoleon or Julius Caesar; you are supposed to be something else. In every lifetime, you have to learn something else. If you have been a brilliant author, don’t expect to be so in the incarnation afterward. You will perhaps become a good musician instead.
It’s something that is tormenting spiritual people and giving them guilt and a bad conscience. And they find out what they have been able to do, and they sit there and think, ‘Why can’t I do it? How could I be so brilliant? How could I write all these books? How could I sing all those songs? I can’t do any of these things today. What’s happening to me? Am I deteriorating or something?’ And that is something you have to understand: you are supposed to learn something else in every lifetime.
You may come back as a brilliant composer, but it might take you 500 years. It’s an interesting thing because I have always had a guilty conscience that I couldn’t write. I couldn’t give out the same intellectual knowledge which I did a hundred – less than a hundred years ago. I said ‘What is this karma I’ve got? Is something wrong with me since I can’t write those books?’ and then I was told by my inner voice that I had learned knowledge, I had learned wisdom but I hadn’t learned love.
If I didn’t learn love this time, I wouldn’t get the knowledge. The more love I’m able to radiate, the more knowledge I get at the same time. That’s my karmic situation. And because I have written those books, I’m not going to write in such a manner. I’m going to write in another manner. I’m going to create something different; not the same thing all over again. And when I understood this, I could recollect myself and say, ‘Don’t have a bad conscience. I am doing what I have to do, and everything is good.’
You suffer from this unconscious guilt that you have done better in other lives and you don’t understand that you are doing comparatively nothing in this incarnation. But when you look into your past and your present, you are doing something brilliant again. There is something you’re doing which will teach you so many lessons in life, and love is something which has to be learned by humanity now.
Knowledge has been abused. With love, you don’t abuse knowledge, so the Hierarchy want people to learn more love, to radiate more love, so they can get the knowledge back, write better music and so forth.
There is also: ‘Do we keep the same sex from incarnation to incarnation?’ And of course, we don’t. We are changing sex, but one thing you have to know, that if you are supposed to finish as a perfected female, you will have more female incarnations than male. If you are supposed to end as a perfected male Master, you will have more male incarnations but there is no number. There is no rule or regulation saying that soul is going to have 1,500 male and 1,200 female incarnations. It all depends how you learn your lessons.
Say that you have been a filthy, disgusting ruler, chopping heads off on this Earth, then you will have incarnation after incarnation – not completely after each other – but you will have incarnation after incarnation as a ruler, until you learn to rule wisely. This is how it goes on Earth.
You will have one incarnation as a man, one after the other, to completely perfect the male principle in your personality. As many as it takes, you will have them. You will have as many female incarnations as it takes to perfect that aspect in you and, if you haven’t got them, you are not balanced and you will not complete your incarnations.
The good news I however can impart upon you today is that you don’t need to have reached perfection on Earth; you can do it somewhere else which means that when you have reached a certain level of equilibrium, you will be asked to leave and go to another planet and continue learning. But we have – and you will see that when you regress – you have many, many incarnations both as male and female.
This is one of the problems with homosexuality, that very many homosexual men have been ladies for quite a number of lives before that incarnation, and they have sexual difficulties. They don’t feel like men sexually, they feel like women. And that is a major problem that [in] the incarnation where you change sex, after you have been a male or female for a long time, you have sexual difficulties. You still feel like a woman, or a man, even if you are the opposite sex.